Check it out, check it out, check it out! (Oh, this is Dana by the way) 2 News did a story on Neuroworx and spotlighted a couple of people. Natalie was on one of the machines and it shows her a couple of times. This story really showcases the facility and the amazing things they are doing for all of the clients, including Natalie!
Oh man, since my last update a lot has changed! I finally, finally got this stupid brace off! The doctors office called me on March 24th (2 days past 6 months exactly). So it's been awesome to finally get to therapy and work on some things that I haven't been able to because of the brace. Therapy has been going great! I was able to get on the LT a little more, as well as get in the pool. We got some videos of both, unfortunately the pool ones don't do it justice. It's been great to try new things and I really feel myself getting stronger and progressing each day. I think I've mentioned that my core is starting to work so we've been working on that quite a bit. Also trying to get my lower back to cooperate. Oh and just this last week we've been getting my glutes to fire! It's so exciting! Hard.. but exciting! I'm getting closer guys, I just know it! I've been continuing to paint stuff to keep me occupied. It's been going really good and I feel like I'm getting better and better at it. Anybody need anything done? Ha ha. Another thing I've been asked to help with which I'm so excited about, is some speaking engagements with middle schools and high schools. One of the guys I go to therapy with has put this together and asked if I wanted to help. I of course jumped at the opportunity. This is always what I've wanted to do even before the accident but didn't really have anything that made me worth listening to, ya know? It's been awesome though. He asked me to put together a little video of before the accident, the accident, and how far I've come since then. We go to schools and either talk to a class or do it assembly style and just tell them what happened. The hope is to get them to take something from it. Whether that be stay positive, be careful, stay active, remember to be grateful, etc., things like that. It has been so rewarding already, I really hope that they take something from this and grow. I know it probably won't necessarily change someone's life but I hope it makes some kind of impact on them. This has been a crazy experience and to have the opportunity to express myself through this blog, through friends and family, and/or to the students has been a huge help. I can't imagine trying to go through this on my own. Knowing how I was in middle and high school, I hope they realize that life is precious and we are so lucky to be here every day. One of the other guys that went and spoke with me to an assembly yesterday said, "In a blink of an eye, your entire life can change, literally, a blink of an eye." It's so true, the only thing that is guaranteed in this life is death. We can only hope that we do everything we can to live it to the fullest. No regrets! A couple weekends ago I was able to go to Wendover for the first time since the accident. If any of you know me you know I love to gamble! It's a really good thing I don't live in a gambling state or I'd be broke! It was a lot of fun to go though. I really love playing craps but with the tall table I didn't know if I'd be able to play. Luckily though, they let us bring a tall barstool from the bar and I was able to get onto that and play for a while. I ended up basically even on that until we went over to the penny machines. There's this one game that I particularly love, it's a game called All That Glitters. It takes a while to find it but once I do I'll post up there for quite awhile. I ended up winning about $200 on it so at that point I called it a night! It's almost worse though when you win in Wendover, because all you want to do is go back! Of course I can't really complain because right now I'm writing this blog from the hotel room in Vegas. Ben has some work to do here in town and asked if I wanted to tag along. Of course I said yes! So while he's out working I'm here hanging out doing a little gambling, updating you guys and pretty sure I'm going to go hang out by the pool here in a bit. These legs need some sun! My first flight wasn't too bad. The flight isn't too long so we didn't have any issues there. I think the hardest part for me was taking the shuttle to the rental car place. To put the ramp down so that I can get in the bus they have this really loud beeping noise like a semi backing up. Then once I get in, he makes this big stink about having to strap me down to the floor. "If something happens and you're not strapped down, I get in trouble." Why would you get in trouble because I'm not strapped down? There's not even seat belts for everyone else. I just felt stupid, and I know it's not a big deal but it's just one of those things that makes you feel...different. I don't like it but whatever, I'm over it. Well I think that's it for now. As I get stronger and things get better I know it takes me longer to update the blog so I'm sorry for that. But hey, life happens right? Thank you as always for your continued support and love! I have the best friends and family ever!
Where do I begin with these well overdue update? Well I FINALLY got my new wheelchair! It's pretty cute and I like the changes we made to it from the old chair. Honestly though, it will be way more exciting to give it away. But for now I'm glad I finally got it. I've been continuing to paint like crazy! I swear the ladies at Micheal's are going to start calling Ben and me by name (Ben's really happy about our frequent trips there too...)! Its been fun to be able to make things that I otherwise would never have thought to. I keep forgetting to take pictures of the stuff though before I give it away. So, sorry, you'll have to just take my word for it. Ha ha. Brace is..... Technically still on but I never wear it anymore except to therapy. I had some tests done last week and was supposed to hear back, but unfortunately it's taking them a lot longer to get back to me. So until we get word from the doctor I'm unable to do that walking machine or the pool. You can imagine my frustration! I've discovered a new thing that I can do with my legs. My spasms have been pretty aggressive lately and I have to try wearing them out or everything becomes impossible. This I did get a video of, I'm able to actually get on my hands and knees. Before if I would have tried this my legs and hips would just fall so someone would have to hold my hips up. But now, I'm able to balance myself and use the spasms to help hold me up. I even got a couple push-ups in. It's really hard though so I'll have to work on it. A week or 2 ago I was able to go with one of my neighbors and their kids Ice-skating. Although I didn't get on the ice, it was still a lot of fun to watch the kids skate around, or should I say try to skate around. I remember trying to ice skate as a kid, it was so much fun but so hard. They did really good though, better then I did, that's for sure. When Ben and myself first started dating he took me up the canyon to Brighton ski resort, they have an ice skating rink up there and we were the only ones on the ice that night. It was the night we became "official" we weren't just dating anymore, we were a couple. Poor guy, if he only knew what he was in for ha ha! These 8 years have been full of ups and downs but I couldn't be happier with who we are today. That's the whole point of this life isn't it? Become better people, go through things that test us and learn from those hardships. That's my view at least and I think we're doing pretty damn good. The other day I was able to spend some time with a good friend of mine and her daughters. Her 3 girls are so funny and all have such different personalities. It reminds me of my siblings and myself when we were young. Things were so easy then, of course you don't realize it until you're older. I'm not a mom but can imagine how hard it must be. Raising this person to be a good, strong, healthy and happy individual I'm sure is a scary task. I'm so grateful for the parents I have! I commend all of you that have taken on this task. I feel as though it's hard enough raising myself at times, adding another person to the equation takes a lot of courage and confidence in yourself. Maybe one of these days...(Don't count on it, mom, sorry).
Anyways, therapy has been going great. I'm getting stronger and my endurance is up. I just can't wait to get in the pool and back on the walking machine! The place I go to is Neuroworx, and they are going to be building a new building soon and need help. They are taking donations to help fund and furnish the Neuroworx family room, which is for family and/or friends that come with the patient. It's like the waiting area, it will be so awesome to get something cool in there. It's so important to have a good support system and the least we can do is give them something to do while waiting! Also they are doing the Legacy River Run on Saturday, May 31st at 8:00am. For more details on both events, go to my SUPPORT page. Spread the word! Neuroworx is an amazing place and they do so many great things there, so anything you can help with would be soooo great! So I think I confused some people with my last post so let me just take a second to clear it up. The guy I was talking about with the surgery he had done is very, very new and not available to just anyone. The procedure is still in an experimental phase I guess you could say. He is the fourth person in the entire world to have this done and they are still trying to figure out just how this whole thing works. So no, I am not having any more surgeries as of yet. It's just exciting to hear and see these cool things that they're coming up with. These last few weeks have been full of ups and downs. I had my first full breakdown in quite a while. I just got really concerned with my relationship with Ben I guess. I just worry a lot, I don't want him to suffer. I know we're going through this together but sometimes I feel like he doesn't deserve this. Not saying that I do either it's just hard to watch someone you care about, have to take on so much. But after expressing my concerns with him he was very good at reassuring me that everything would be okay. I know this is temporary but it just feels like it takes so long sometimes. Another new thing that happened since the last time I updated you all was that I was able to get a standing frame for my house! Normally looking for these online they run anywhere from $1500-$3000. Not really something we can afford at this time so it was put on the back burner for the time being. But last week when I went in for my therapy session there was a sign hanging on the front desk for a standing frame for sale for only $400. Sounds like a lot I know but compared to the alternative it was really really cheap. After a few phone calls back-and-forth with the lady selling it, we were able to go pick it up. This is great for my blood pressure, and bone density, as well as building muscle in my legs. I think I've explained how it works in a previous update but basically it's a chair that I sit in that has a pad that holds your knees in place as well as your back. Once in the frame there is a handle on the side that you pump up like a carjack and it puts you in a standing position. We took a picture of it (to the right) so you could see what it is. So I've been using that on my off days from therapy. Thank you everyone for donating by the way, that money really helped make that possible. I can't tell you guys how much I appreciate it. Another new development in therapy is going to be kind of hard to explain but it was pretty cool doing it. They have this machine that is a platform that you stand on and it has a bar for you to hold onto. The platform vibrates with different intensities to help strengthen your muscles. I'm glad we took some videos because it would be really confusing otherwise. You can't really tell but that platform is vibrating so much it shakes my entire head and everything. It was hard to even see straight ha ha! The therapist was behind me holding me in place but once the machine turned on and started vibrating he could almost take his hands and shoulder off of me completely so I was standing there on my own. But as soon as the machine turned off, it was like I turned off. I immediately went limp, it's a good thing he was there though he had a feeling that was going to happen. He did say however, that was the most intense he's ever seen anybody react to it so I thought that was pretty cool. Still not sure what it all means but it's a good thing that my muscles are reacting to things like that. Monday at therapy I was able to get onto a treadmill-like machine. They harness you up like you're going rockclimbing and hoist you up over the treadmill. You then have two therapists on the sides of you as well as one behind you holding your hips in place and they basically make you walk. Got some cool videos of that too, unfortunately we weren't able to do it for very long because it was starting to irritate my neck. It felt so weird, it was such an awkward walk. And the way they had the harness hooked up it made me look like I had a little belly, that I just kept laughing at. Oh and there was a full-length mirror right in front of me so I was able to watch myself walk. The therapist holding my legs aren't actually pulling my legs, which is what it looks like. They take their hands and trigger the muscles to move so it's me walking but with their assistance. It's all muscle memory. The hope is that we can get my muscles to start reacting again and help strengthen that signal. Tomorrow at therapy I will also be trying the FES bike for the first time. This is the same idea as that machine I was just talking about but it's a bike. But instead of the therapists triggering those muscles, they have these little sensors they hook up to your legs that send the signal. This is something I can do every day if I would like to or on my therapy days after my normal session. It's kind of like when you go work out and run on the treadmill for 20-30 minutes before or after your workout. I'm pretty excited about all the new stuff I've been able to do, it's just getting me one step closer to walking again. In my downtime I've started to pick up a new hobby. I've never been one to like to paint but apparently these days I really like it. Not having much to do in the winter, it's been nice to have something that occupies my time. I took some pictures of the stuff I've done, I think the little fishy's my favorite ha ha. Anyway, I think that's about it. Thank you so much for still reading and still caring. Your support means more than you guys could ever imagine!
2 more months. I just got the call from the doctors office and they said 2 more months. I can't tell you how disappointing that is to hear. I know I need to remember that it takes time for the bones to heal but dammit I hate this brace! I'm so bummed! I've got 2 sides of my brain right now fighting with each other. It's like the devil and angel are on my shoulders. The devils saying 'be pissed, cry, be angry! 2 more months is going to be forever this is bull crap! Tell everyone you don't want to talk about it and to go to hell!' Then the angel is like 'its ok, you knew this was a huge possibility, you'll be fine. 2 months is nothing compared to the big picture.' It's just hard, I built it up in my head thinking, there's no way I'm not ready. I'll take the brace off at night when we're just hanging out and it feels strong. I just knew they were going to say it was good to come off. And now 2 more months? It's like a punch in the face. I know I'll be fine, like I said I just built it up and really felt like it was ready. Oh well, what can you do... On another, less depressing note, therapy's been going well. We're continuing to work on getting my abdomen working again and it's been good. Every time I think I'm getting the hang of it they throw something else at me that keeps me working. At therapy today I met this guy who is the 4th person in the world to have this procedure done. His was a T4-T5 injury like me with no feeling below the chest. With this procedure they did on him he's now able to use his core, stand, and move his legs. Eventually he'll be able to walk on his own as well. It's hard to explain what they do but, because I've been with a "car man" for the last 8 years, this is how I'll explain it. Your body is like a car. It works ok but the engines not strong enough on its own to send the single to drive/walk so you add a turbo kit to it. It uses the signals you're sending and amplifies them so you can actually do it. It's pretty cool stuff they are coming up with. If I can get the actual name of the procedure I'll let you know if you want to read more about it. January 8, 2014 Today is a new day, I've decided I need to start getting up earlier. Mornings are hard for me. The aches and my appetite are not so good. But the earlier I get up and faster that will come and go right? We shall see! I have therapy again today and am looking forward to what I will learn to do next. Standings been apart of just about each therapy session and it's getting a lot easier for me to stand without getting dizzy. I want to be able to do that so we can move towards getting me on the machines that make you walk. Soon enough! Well have a good day and always remember to be grateful for something new everyday! Hey all I guess I should probably clear this up. As I said before, I got X-rays done yesterday to see if the brace can come off. The thing is though, the X-rays will be reviewed by the surgeons office but they won't be looking at them right away. They said it could take them a couple of days to get back to me. But as soon as I hear I'll be sure to update you all.
Happy New Year to everyone! I hope you have a fun, safe New Years! Ben and I had a pretty tame one. We went to dinner with a group of friends and then headed to one if their houses for some games. It was pretty low key but it was still nice to get out for a while. I can't wait to hear from the doctor! The wait is going to suck! I really REALLY hope this thing comes off!! Keep your fingers crossed for me! I just want to take a moment to wish everyone a Merry Christmas! This blog has been such a blessing to me. It's been very therapeutic for me and I've needed it to help keep me going some days. My family Christmas party was Sunday and in the middle of playing a game my dad's entire side of the family showed up with some letters. They decided to put together the money they would have spent on each other and donated it to Ben and myself. My Aunt Judy also gave me a letter from the athletic director from Bingham High that also enclosed a check. I can't tell you how much it helps. There's a saying, 'your friends are the family you choose.' Well, I couldn't have asked or chosen a better family. Without their support I would have given up a long time ago. I love them so much it's crazy! Thank you family, you guys mean so so so much to me. Ben and I can't thank you guys enough. Oh and don't freak out at the picture below, I just took the brace off for the picture. I'm still waiting to get the x-rays done on the 2nd of January! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!
This last week or so has been pretty good. I find myself a little bummed though. With everything that's happened it doesn't feel like Christmas time, it feels like...winter. I usually love Christmas, being able to wrap presents and see everyone open them, the time I spend with family and friends, the stupid Christmas music... All of it. This year just doesn't feel the same. That's not to say I'm not grateful to be here. Hell I'm alive by millimeters... At least that's what I hear. So honestly the greatest gift I could ask for is to be alive still. It's just hard having it be so different than what I'm used to. But the show must go on! I've been trying to get out more. I think it really helps to be out doing things again. I was able to go to a play with my parents and grandma. It was the Scrooge one and it was pretty good. I've seen it a few times before (like most of you probably have as well) but its still a good one to see. My dad and I drove separate from my mom and grandma. The older I've gotten the more I've grown to really appreciate and value my dad's opinion. I love conversations with him. He loves so deep and we share so many of the same personality trails. Growing up it didn't always seem that way though. We butted heads a lot and I was a...brat to say the least. Man I tried my parents, I'm surprised they didn't give up or strangle me! I was just a typical teenage girl that thought I knew it all, didn't care, and broke a lot if not all their rules. It wasn't until maybe 5-6 years ago I realized just how much they truly mean to me. I'm so glad they didn't quit on me and I'm so glad they cared as much as they did. But long story short, my dad and I are closer now then I think we ever have been and I couldn't be happier for that. Therapy has been going well also. The spasms I have been having are starting to help in therapy. When we stand me up, the spasms will lock my legs and it helps keep me standing. I think I told you last time that we're also working on getting my abs/core to start working more as well. It's little baby steps but I'm comin along! Yesterday was a good day as well, I was able to go shopping with a couple friends of mine. Ben and I decided we would just stuff each others stockings this year. So I was able to get a few small things for him. It's hard, I want to get him so many things. I feel like he's done so much for me that I want to give him the world but right now it's not all that possible. Hopefully we can get everything under control by next year though and actually relax and enjoy this time of year. It's nice to get out of the house though, not just for therapy but for anything really. This week seems like it's going to be a little busier. We have a few parties to go to and I'm excited to focus on someone/something other than myself. I hope everyone has their own set of plans and enjoys this time of year. My x-rays are coming up on the 2nd of January. If they think the bones have healed enough by then, then the brace will come off! I'm really looking forward to it. I've been cheating a little and taking it off. Of course when I do I don't move at all. I took it off in front of the mirror for the first time yesterday. It looks so weird! I feel like I look like one of those African women that put the rings around their necks and stretch them out. I'm sure it really isn't bad, but it's just been so long. It feels pretty strong, I feel good about it. I bet they say I'm good to go. Think of me on the 2nd. I'm sure I'll let you all know so keep checking in. Thanks for reading, I'll update again soon! Hi all! I know, I know I'm totally fired. It has been so long since I last updated. Happy belated Thanksgiving! I hope everyone enjoyed it and ate a lot of food. Our thanksgiving was pretty great! We had Ben's parents, sisters, and niece and nephew all here for the weekend. Some of you may know this but for those of you who don't, Ben is actually from Louisiana. If you know anything about Louisiana, you know they love to cook. I think my kitchen was used more than it ever has been in the past year and a half since we've lived here. There was so much food, not even just for Thanksgiving but the day before, the day after and the day after that. It's funny how different families can be. My family is so formal during the holidays. You set the table, matching silverware, matching plates, all the dressings. We sit at the table at the same time, have a prayer and then we all take turns and pass all the food around until everyone has what they need. Then you have Ben's family who is completely opposite. We get the food ready, and it's a free-for-all. You find a plate, you get whatever you want to drink, load up your plate from the food sitting on the counter and find a spot wherever you can. Both ways are so different, but I love them both. Ben's family doesn't get together a whole lot, his oldest sister lives in Boise, Idaho so it's so nice to have everyone together. His middle sister Lacey, was here as well. She used to live with us when we lived in West Valley, so having her here for a few days was nice, too. She's one of the mouthiest but nicest people I have ever met. Ben's nephew, Ty, is a spitting image of Ben when he was a kid. He loves the Wii, and loves the games on the iPhones. His niece, Kayla, also loves that stuff. They actually play really well together, too. It's funny, growing up with three siblings it seemed like we were always yelling at each other and/or fighting. I remember a few things my mom used to do when we were fighting. I think I fought the most with my brother, Gavin. When we would get in fights my mom would send us in a room together, shut the door, and we would have to say 10 nice things about each other before we could leave the room. At first it always started with "you're ugly, you're hair is stupid, I don't want you as my brother", mean things like that. But with my mom on the other side of the door, she would stick her head in and say "nope those don't count, those aren't nice." After a few minutes of laughing our way through it, we would always end up saying "you have nice eyes, I like your hair, you're a nice brother, you throw the ball really well", things like that. But Kayla and Ty are really smart. When they argue, they're usually right next to each other, and if you don't listen carefully you won't even hear it. They're so quiet when they argue. But their mom Carissa, is smart, she hears it, she knows her kids really well. She's so calm with them. She gives them the opportunity to stop, and then the game goes off, they're in time out, or it's push-ups. It's pretty cute to watch Ty do those push-ups; he whips them out like it's nothing. But hey, they listen, whatever works. The Saturday after Thanksgiving, we had a packed house. Carissa and the kids were here, with Ben and myself and we were just hanging out. I got a call from my mom saying she wanted to come visit for a little bit. She had my dad, oldest sister, Nicole, her husband Jr., with there three kids, and Dana, my little sister and her husband Nate. Before I knew it the house was full. We all mingled, while the kids all played the Wii, when Ben decided to play a little joke. I'm so glad I caught it on camera, you'll have to watch the video (Semi Horn Scares the Kids). Later on, I can't remember what started the conversation, but I challenged my dad to do 20 push-ups. It took some persuading, but he said if someone else did it with him he would. I'm really glad I also got that on camera is well (Push Up Contest). What can I say, the old man's still got it! By Sunday afternoon, we had an empty house again. Yeah it was a little busy and hectic at times but it was nice to have them here. With December 1 being here I was pretty excited for "no shave November" to be over. Ben was starting to look like a hobo. He made it though, even with my constant nagging to shave, he held out. I was just hanging out laying on the bed watching a little TV, when he came out of the bathroom. Completely shaved, he looks so different! In a good way though, I hate facial hair so to have it all gone, I was so happy. I made him kneel on the ground next to me and I petted his face for probably 20 minutes. It's so smooth and he looks so handsome! Good job hubby!! As for me, therapy has been going great. We have been working on getting me to sit up straight, stand (with help of course), and I've began to get some ab strength back. I've been getting spasms not only in my legs and back but also in my abdomen area. It's crazy, everything will just flex out and it feels so tight! Imagine flexing your entire lower body as tight as you possibly can. It's not that it hurts, it's just really hard to move anywhere until your body relaxes again. Some say the spasms are good, if you can learn how to use them to your benefit. Like with standing, which has been working well this week. It's hard to explain but when you agitate it, it kind of locks out. So they put a walker in front of me and with their help I lift myself up with my arms. By doing it fast like that, my legs spasm and lock out basically and support my weight. Of course if we didn't balance me I'd fall, it's kind of fun. The problem I am having though is my blood pressure drops and I get dizzy and lightheaded. So I haven't been able to stand for very long yet. It's frustrating, I understand why but its still just like "why can't I just stand dammit!" Ha ha, in time, I know. It's getting better though! I'm able to stand for longer then I could. I'm just being impatient I guess. Oh something else that's kind of new is, my legs have started to flex out straight in front of me. Its happened a few times and Ben and I laugh so hard. I don't know why it's so funny but it is! They just lock straight out, it's weird! Another first for me was the movie theater. I went with Ben and a bunch of my dads side of the family. We went and saw the new Hunger Games movie, Catching Fire. It was a good movie, I haven't read the books so I don't know what's going to happen but I thought the way it ended was lame. I also owe my family an apology, because as soon as the movie ended, we hightailed it out of there. I was having such bad spasms from not moving for that long and my neck was so tight and hurt from sitting too close. I had to get out, I'm so so so sorry family for not saying goodbye or saying much of anything. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! :) Well I think that's it for now. Thank you guys all for still caring and I appreciate everyone's willingness to help us. You guys are amazing people!
Hi everyone, it's been a while! This week has been interesting. It's been hard, exciting, exhausting, challenging, fun, new and so many other things. It's funny how every week holds something new. I've been trying to do more on my own this week. I've been transferring to the chair more and to different places by myself. I've also been cooking A LITTLE, if you know anything about me you know I don't cook. But I made myself some eggs the other morning and some Mac n' Cheese too. It's actually not too difficult. It takes me a lot longer but hey, at least I can do it. Today I did something I haven't done in the past 7 weeks. Drum roll please..... I put on jeans!! Wahoo! Ha ha, I feel pretty good about it. It's been so long, all I've been wearing are pajama pants. Not that I don't love wearing them but it's nice to feel a little bit more normal again. Oh and I actually got to wear my wedding ring again.
This whole thing has been such a challenge but I just keep thinking, "if I couldn't handle it, it wouldn't have been given to me." I was talking to my sister Dana yesterday and said, "Can you imagine how scary it would feel to think you would NEVER walk again?" That would suck. I'm so excited for the day that I walk again on my own. It's not a hope for me, it's a simple fact, I will not ever accept not walking again. It's not why this happened. I can't wait to tell people my story about how this crazy thing happened to me and against the odds, I overcame it. It's not to say this hasn't been hard, I've had moments that I just want to give up. But I can't, it's not who I am. I'm too damn stubborn! (Thanks for that dad.) I went to my outpatient rehab facility Wednesday. It wasn't my first exercise, it was just an evaluation. We went back today (Friday) and it went really well. I'm excited, I have a really good feeling about this place and the therapists seem great. I met a gentleman there that has been going there since 2010. He was paralyzed from the neck down and he is now walking. He said he loves the place and that they do some amazing things there. I love hearing that, it's so motivating! I am nervous for the winter time. I've never liked it and now being stuck in a chair for the time being it making me uneasy. I'm going to have to really focus on what's important and not let the crap outside get to me. It shouldn't be too bad though. I'm going to be going to the outpatient therapy place at least 3 days a week. As for this brace I'm in, it looks like I may be in it through the new year. I just called to schedule the follow up appointment and they can't get me in until the middle of January! I'm not too happy about that. But it's my own fault, I should have called sooner. Seriously, when this thing comes off it will be so much easier to do everything! I'm hoping they have a cancellation or find a way to get me in sooner because I feel like this brace holds me back from being more independent. It's ok, in due time. I have to keep telling myself that. Well that's it for now, love you all! |